Thoughts on the Void

I wish I could look into your eyes
Just one last time,
But I know that’s not possible now.
You’ve moved on from all the ways I failed you.
If I could see the future
The way I remember the past
I would have made you smile
Like I always wished.
I wanted to take you to dinner.
I wanted to take you to a movie.
I wanted to hold your hand
And walk through the park.
I wanted to lay on the ground and kiss your lips
Then stare up at the clouds
And guess their changing shapes.
I wanted to sit with you on a rainy night,
We could just watch your favorite show
While your cat turned my lap into a home,
And I could take you in my arms
When it got to the sad parts.
I would have shared everything
And given anything.
The way you said,
“You don’t know what that does to me,”
Made me the happiest I’ve ever been in my life.
I had your heart
And it slipped away
And now I’ve lost my hope
To ever again find the same.
Anyway, I just wanted you to know,
Before you turn and go,
That my love for you will live on
Until time comes to a halt
And all trace of us
Has vanished from this world.